It’s all about the flash,
the flash of the past,
the flash of what was
the flash of what could have been.
The flash of dreams coming true,
dreams that would make life better.
I know it.
I can feel it,
so I pray
and dream some more
for a better life.
Then I dream for better flashes,
flashes that tell me I am good.
flashes that tell me it will get better,
flashes that tell me people care,
flashes that tell me people love me,
flashes that tell me I will make it again because I did it before.
Then more flashes asking why,
and when will life get better,
flashes of other people’s lives
that seem so much better,
so much easier
Then I just pray–
pray for acceptance of what is and what was.
Pray for peace
for my faith to become stronger.
I keep trying and fighting,
praying I will feel better soon
I just pray.
Pray for happiness
This is what recovery is
I keep typing until I feel better.
It hasn’t worked yet
but I will keep trying,
working through it.
Typing to feel,
I will make it again.
I have made it before
and I will make it again.
Type, type, type
to feel real.
Type away my sadness.
Type, type, type.
The sadness is still here,
so I type.
I type some more
and pray for happiness and love
to fill my soul,
for loneliness to leave me.
I will make it.
Recovery is possible.
I am living proof.
I will never forget.
I am living proof.
So I keep living
I am ALIVE.
I am breathing.
I am a survivor.
I am ALIVE
~Written by Susan Walz
This is why I write and blog. Sometimes I know I need something, so I just type–to feel, to feel real. Thanks for reading. I hope you can relate to this.
Keep fighting, feeling and being.
Sometimes all we can do is “be.” Just “be.” Give yourself credit for accepting when you need to just “be.” Today is a day I just need to “be” so I am ‘being” for a little while until I can “be” more than I am now–until I can feel more like me–the better me.
All of the “me’s” I have are okay
and all of the “you’s” you have are okay too.
Some days are like that. We need to give ourselves a day to just “be.
BE all that you can BE.
BE the best you
you can BE.
Much love and hugs, Sue
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I accidently found your blog, it is great… I like your writings… I just wanted to ask you… Are you happy?
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Yes. I’m very happy and very blessed to be alive.😊💗
Thank you. I am happy you liked my work. Thanks for following too. I appreciate you. Much love.