Teased by Happiness

my loud whispers of hope

I don’t trust happiness. It never lasts.

A momentary tease to fool me into thinking I deserve some

only to have it snatched from me

reminding me of my nothingness.

Happiness settles in for a brief moment

long enough to taste its intense pleasure,

only to have it ripped from my heart

and shredded into shards of empty hollowness.

Happiness must be an illusion.

Tastes of it only intensify the pain of my loneliness and feelings of being unloved.

People rob me from the bliss I crave.

The joy and love I so need to live a substantial purposeful life.

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Photo credit: photo by Mathilde Langevin on Unsplash

Copyright © 2021 by Susan Walz of My Loud Whispers of Hope

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Published by my loud whispers of hope

I share my story openly and honestly to educate others and increase the awareness of mental illness, reduce stigma, prevent suicide, to inspire, give hope and let God's love shine through me and touch you. I finished writing, proofreading and editing my memoir in January of 2019. I am in the process of sending my manuscript to agents and publishers that accept unsolicited maunscripts. I pray my words will turn into a book that will inspire and spark joy and hope in the lives of many. Recovery and healing are possible. I am living proof. "There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you." ~Maya Angelou

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