From Now On

While I was sewing masks today, I listened to one of my favorite songs, “From Now On” from the Greatest Showman and it spoke louder to me than it usually does.

Music and dance and the arts have always played a large role in my recovery. For me they can be a beautiful distraction from pain, they can spark emotion inside me when I am empty, and listening to certain music can remind me of happy memories, while worship music always helps me feel closer to God.

The song “From Now On” is such a happy song for me. As the music crescendos, my joy, love and jubilance increases with it. It is my new anthem.

“From now on… what has waited until tomorrow starts tonight.”

From now on, I will not put things off. I will live each day to the fullest.

“Let this promise in me start

Like an anthem in my heart
From now on”

I promise that this is my time. I will live up to my fullest potential. I have been given a new chance at life–a rejuvenation of my heart and soul and life. I will make the most of each day and be the best me I can be.

“But when I stop

And see you here
I remember who all this was for.”

When I think of my children my heart swells with love and adoration for them. They saved my life numerous times. They were always the reason I fought to survive. I had to for them. I want to make them proud of me. I want to live my life and always be there for them in ways I never could before.

“From now on

And we will come back home
Home, again!”

We all have the opportunity to come back home. Meaning we can all return to where we want to be – we can come back home. We can find what we lost. We can restore what was shattered. We can love again.

I can go back home. I can go back to myself– to the person I was before the interference of mental illness and addiction.

We can all find our way back HOME. Home, again with recovery. Maybe recovery is the home you are coming back to. Make that your goal. You can reach it. It is obtainable. Recovery is our home. Recovery is our option. Recovery is our gift of life. We all have it in us.

I came back home to myself. I made it. I came back home… better in many ways than I was before.

Find a way to come back to who you used to be or to who you want become.

From now on. Come back home.

Recovery is waiting for you with open arms.

Come back home…

to recovery.

Come back home…

to your beautiful self.

I hope this video makes you smile.

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