Celebrate Your Mental Illness Recovery – No Matter Where You are in Your Recovery

Bipolar switches from two mood poles of mania to depression and back again.

The mood poles undulate gradually and mildly for some people with bipolar, but I have no undulation of my mood poles.

My mood poles switch from great dips and valleys to elevated climbs to the highest peaks. There are no stops in between my valleys below sea level to the tops of the mountains beyond the skies. My journey is full of swimming out of the oceans below to hiking up to the top of Mount Everest.

I seem to have no levels in between  There is no resting in between my two extreme mood poles of hypomania to severe suicidal depression and back again and again.

Since I have been hiking the trails of bipolar for many years, I have become more agile with my climbs and learned to adapt to the rapid climate changes and elevations of my mood poles. I am now in a much better mental fitness state. My endurance has improved and I have become much better at coping with my hikes and journeys of bipolar symptoms.

I am surviving and living without having to be hospitalized, self harming, overdosing or attempting suicide anymore, like I did often in the past.

I think with mental illness we should be able to talk about our recovery journey and our survival like sobriety, and be able to celebrate it.

I have been clean and free from self harm, taking more medications than prescribed, overdosing, attempting suicide and needing to be hospitalized for four plus years. That is a very long time for me, since my diagnosis of onset postpartum bipolar 25 years ago.

I still must fight severe symptoms often, but I have learned how to cope better. Even though I have many difficult moments, I am surviving and coping better, safer and much more appropriately.

Thank you, God. I praise God for saving my life many times.

Again, I am now free from self harm, overdosing, suicide attempts and hospitalizations for over four years now. I am celebrating this and you should all celebrate your recovery too, no matter where you are in your own personal recovery.

Just so you know…

If you are alive, you are a survivor.

If you are alive, you are in recovery, somewhere and anywhere in your recovery is fabulous. I just wanted to clear that up.

Celebrate your survival.

Celebrate your recovery.

Celebrate you.

Celebrate your life.

Your life has purpose.

You have purpose and you matter.

We are all strong survivors.

We are awesome and fabulous in many beautiful and brilliant ways.

How is  your recovery?

What have you accomplished and overcome?

Please share it, even if it is two days with no self harm, that is huge.

Even if you got out of bed today, that is huge.

What does your recovery look like today?

How can we celebrate you?

Please tell me. Please share.

Many blessings and hugs to you, always and forever. Love, Sue

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  1. I admitted my diagnosis not just to myself, but others around me and even started blogging about it! I am at a good part in my recovery right now! Like you said, so long as I am alive I am winning!

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    1. Congratulations to you on your success in recovery and on your journey. You are a strong survivor and it is awesome that you are sharing your story. The first step in recovery is acceptance and that is a big step to hurdle. It took me too long to accept my diagnosis and my new life. After I finally did life began to get better gradually. I think sharing your story really helps a lot and blogging is very therapeutic for me. It is a lifesaver for me sometimes. Thank you very much for reading my post and for your great comments. I appreciate you sharing your success with me. Thank you. I am happy you are doing well. Love and hugs, Sue

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  2. When I had suicidal tendancies, it was out of my control. I didn’t know where it was coming from, nor why. Once I got on medication for chemical imbalance I was better. Was it something you consciously wanted to do for you or was it uncontrollable urges? I mean did you really want to commit suicide because you couldn’t deal with living anymore, or was it something that just came over you? Thank goodness I don’t have them anymore.

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    1. I believe suicidal ideations and thoughts are mostly something that my brain does to me. My life can be wonderful and suicidal depression will just hit me or it has been related to adverse reactions to medications as well. I do not believe suicidal thoughts are conscious decisions to think that way. It was as if my brain was trying to kill me and I had to fight with my brain to stay alive. Sometimes it is a combination of both… the brain and life circumstances, but mental illness is usually the culprit behind severe depression and suicidal thoughts or attempts…. brain disease or negative brain chemistry etc. That is what so many people do not understand. True clinical depression occurs for no reason usually… sadness and sorrow that occur after a traumatic event or a death of a loved one for example are natural and normal reactions and feelings…. clinical depression and suicidal thoughts are not. I am happy you were strong and got help and you survived and I am happy you do not have suicidal thoughts anymore. They are so painful and exhausting and dangerous.Thank you for reading and your insightful comments. I appreciate it greatly. Hugs, Sue

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      1. Thank you for your reply. I know some people that get depressed and do end up committing suicide have already figured out in their mind, how they would do it. A planned kind of thing. Thank you for answering that. You said it well, like your brain fighting to try to kill. That is what it felt like for me.

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      2. Oh I have thoughts in my head of a plan and how to do it. I know that is awful but I have to fight the thoughts of my plan… It can last for days and years ago I attempted and am lucky to be alive. I just have to fight these thoughts. It is awful. Thanks for listening. It is bipolar 1

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    1. Thank you. I am happy you liked my post. I love your comment and I agree with you because I think the success of our recovery with bipolar or any mental illness is greatly related to the depth of our understanding of our illness. It took me a long time… too long to finally accept my illness and understand all the many different aspects of it and what works for me and what doesn’t. I think I have also learned to not fight my illness but have learned to cope with it and ride with may severe mood poles as they occur. Sometimes I must fight severe symptoms to survive, but I finally do not fight the reality of what my bipolar truly is. Thank you again for reading and your wonderful comment. It made me think and I love that. Love and hugs, Sue

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