Crescendo is defined as a gradual increase in loudness or intensity and a crescendo is what is happening to me since I woke up this morning. First of all, I couldn’t sleep so I decided I might as well get up. It is going to be a great gloriously beautiful, love-filled, happy tears of joy kind of day, so why should I sleep. Let me wake up and start my beautiful, brilliant, fabulous, lovely day now.
Yesterday was my son’s wedding rehearsal and dinner. It went beautifully and makes me truly realize that my baby boy, my only son, my heart, my big precious glorious heart, my son Keagan, is getting married today.
I am so happy and excited for him. I love him huge beyond any words I can convey. I am so proud of him for who he is and everything he has done and accomplished and everything he will accomplish in his future. He saves my life every day. Just looking at him and seeing his very handsome face makes me smile and fills my heart with joyful love and pride of being his Mom. I am so happy, fortunate and blessed to be his mom and to be here and alive to celebrate this beautiful day full of love and blessings with him.
I say it in that way, because I am a suicide attempt survivor, many times. Praise God, I am still alive. I am alive to enjoy and celebrate with my son the beautiful glorious day of his wedding. The day he marries his bride, Brooke, the love of his life and woman of his of dreams.
Thank you God, for my beautiful baby boy and helping him to grow into a wonderful man. I pray his wedding day turns out just the way he has always dreamed about and I pray that all his dreams for his life will come true.
September is National Suicide Prevention Awareness Month.
Suicide is the opposite of a crescendo. Suicide is a decrescendo of a beautiful life.
A decrescendo is a gradual diminishing of loudness, intensity, or force. A person that dies by suicide does not just wake up one day and decide to end his life. It usually takes many days, months, or years of struggling and fighting to survive and endure the severe intense deep dark gruesome pain of hopelessness, agony and despair that severe depression, bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, personality disorder, substance abuse, eating disorders and other mental illnesses cause that a person feels suicide is the only option, answer and way to escape the extreme pain. Their only way out. So, they choose to die by suicide.
Suicide is a decrescendo to the finality and demise of a person’s life.
We must make our voices heard very loud and strong about mental illness, mental illness stigma and suicide prevention. It is critical. It is crucial. Each life is priceless. We must prevent suicides and save lives.
Since I have such a hopeful, happy, love-filled and blessed day today with my son’s wedding, I wanted to share a song of truth and hope with you today.
The song “Invisible” by Hunter Hayes is a great song with powerful and inspirational lyrics that illustrate the deep pain and sorrow bullying and the daily struggles of life can cause. The lyrics are very important, meaningful and inspirational with strong and encouraging messages of hope that life will get better and you will overcome your struggles and obstacles you have and are feeling today. I feel it also touches on mental illness stigma and that is very important, as well. The overall message of this beautiful song is that life can be difficult at times. but it can and will get better. It is worth every second of the battle.
Please take a look at this video and have a listen. I hope you enjoy it.
“Invisible” Lyrics by Hunter Hayes
Crowded hallways are the loneliest places
For outcasts and rebels
Or anyone who just dares to be different
And you’ve been trying for so long
To find out where your place is
But in their narrow minds
There’s no room for anyone who dares to do something different
Oh, but listen for a minute
Trust the one
Who’s been where you are wishing all it was
Was sticks and stones
Those words cut deep but they don’t mean you’re all alone
And you’re not invisible
Hear me out,
There’s so much more to life than what you’re feeling now
Someday you’ll look back on all these days
And all this pain is gonna be invisible
Oh, invisible
So your confidence is quiet
To them quiet looks like weakness
But you don’t have to fight it
‘Cause you’re strong enough to win without a war
Every heart has a rhythm
Let yours beat out so loudly
That everyone can hear it
Yeah, I promise you don’t need to hide it anymore
Oh, and never be afraid of doing something different
Dare to be something more
Trust the one
Who’s been where you are wishing all it was
Was sticks and stones
Yeah, the words cut deep but they don’t mean you’re all alone
And you’re not invisible
Hear me out,
There’s so much more of this life than what you’re feeling now
And someday you’ll look back on all these days
And all this pain is gonna be invisible
These labels that they give you
just ’cause they don’t understand
If you look past this moment
You’ll see you’ve got a friend
Waving a flag for who you are
And all you’re gonna do
Yeah, so here’s to you
And here’s to anyone who’s ever felt invisible
Yeah, and you’re not invisible
Hear me out,
There’s so much more to life than what you’re feeling now
And someday you’ll look back on all these days
And all this pain is gonna be invisible
It’ll be invisible
Written by Caitlin Rose Baker, James Peter Mangohig, Philip Eric Norman • Copyright © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Universal Music Publishing Group
After today I will have a new addition to my family… a beautiful (inside and out) new daughter-in-law named Brooke. She makes my son’s heart melt and makes him over the moon happy. Thank you Brooke and welcome to our family. You are a beautiful, awesome, wonderful, kind, compassionate, sweet and greatly blessed young lady and new daughter-in-law and new wife for my son.
If I was successful at my many suicide attempts, I would not be alive today to have been a part of this glorious, Godly, beautiful, blessed, love-filled special day. I would have missed it and my son Keagan would not have had his mother with him to celebrate on one of his most special and important days of his life.
Praise God for my life and for the joys of living.
I want to be an inspiration, a reason, an example, HOPE that life can get better. You can survive. I pray I can give you hope. Keep fighting. Keep living. There are so many reasons to keep fighting. Find them. Look hard, start small…
That darkness will one day turn into a bright shining, sparkling beautiful light of something good and beautiful . I promise. I am an example of a life almost lost and wasted. So many people do love me and need me and want me to be alive. The same applies to you. Many people love you and need you in their lives.
I know life and this illness can be beyond difficult and painful. I know it is hard. I have been there too many times and I know my road of fighting and struggling is not over forever, but it is worth it to keep fighting for your life and survival. I am going to keep fighting to be alive for moments in my life like this, like my son’s wedding.
Thank you God, for keeping me a live to breathe another day of life and to be here for my son, to be a part of my son’s big wedding day and to help him celebrate his wedding. Praise God always. I am so blessed.
I made it to today. I survived. I lived. I am breathing and I am alive to enjoy the beauty and specialness and many blessings of this day. Praise God. One day at a time. One moment at a time. Sometimes that is all we can do and that is okay and is great. That is life and that is living. Just keep fighting. Keep going. Keep trying. Keep living.
We are strong. We are mental illness survivors. We are suicide survivors.
May your day overflow with love, happiness and blessings.
Have a happy, joyful, content, peaceful, blessed and healthy day.
Love, hugs and blessings, forever and always.
Love, Sue
Please remember in September to check out my blog every day for other important and inspiring information about suicide prevention. Thank you. Hugs from Sue.
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Reblogged this on J-Dubs Grin and Bear It and commented:
Mental illness is referred to as an invisible illness. No official diagnostic and what is used is subjective and dependent on self reporting. Not entirely reliable. Here is additional info on the topic of the month … the more you know
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Thank you for the reblog. Hugs, Sue
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I am behind but will catch up ❤
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