I lust for what I cannot have.
I lust for what I used to have.
I lust for all I lost.
I lust for the life I once lived.
I lust for the person I used to be
I lust for my life before bipolar.
I lust for my sadness to disappear.
I lust for the thoughts of my lust to stop creating sorrow.
I lust for a man I will never have,
for the man I lust would never lust for me.
I lust for my children to have wonderful futures.
I lust for the money to buy all the things my daughter needs for her senior year.
I lust to find a perfect college for my daughter that will make her happy and be the beginning of all her dreams coming true.
I lust to stop worrying about the things I cannot control and give them all to God.
I lust to have my faith in God increase again. I pray for peace in my heart, soul and mind.
I lust to stop lusting but, I lust just because I must.
I lust for the chocolate I cannot have, because I am dieting, once again.
I lust to be thin.
I lust to be happy.
I lust for my loneliness to stop.
I lust to like myself.
I lust to have people love me.
I lust to be loved.
I lust to have a zest for life again. It has disappeared at this moment and I am lusting to lust for life.
I lust to have success in life. My success in life is anything that makes me happy and feel loved. I am successful if I am happy and loved.
I am not succesful right now.
So, I lust for happiness and I lust for love.
I am alive, which is a huge accomplishment and a miracle in my severe bipolar life.
I lust to love life again.
I lust to have a life worth loving and living.
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