I am very sorry I have been away
many days and more than yesterday.
Unable to read the many blogs you post
and missing so many of them I love the most.
I did not choose to leave or flee
my bipolar brain decided for me
causing chemicals inside my mind
to switch to the dark and unthinkable kind.
Pits of hell
too dark to tell.
Immobilized and stuck in a big trap
in my bed with my covers I could not unwrap.
Unable to move, sit up or get out of bed
thoughts of nothingness stuck in my head.
My cruel unwelcome bipolar beast
that I do not like in the very least
came back smack
with a crack and a whack
to see and be
and visit me.
The depression came back very quickly without any warning or clue
having to wait and pray for it to leave as there is nothing I can do.
I must add that my Bipolar is the ultradian rapid cycling kind
which causes my extreme mood poles to switch fast in my mind.
This can sometimes be a blessing in disguise
and one thing about my Bipolar brain I do not despise.
After a few long painful days plus one more
my depression slowly began floating to shore
I am very fortunate and happy to say
my bipolar depression has floated away
Finally I feel very happy and well
and able to have good thoughts to tell
Hopefully you will like the future words I write
and they will bring you much joy, wisdom and delight.
https://dailypost.wordpress.com/prompts/flee/
My Loud Whispers of Hope 
You have a great attitude,
Glad you’re in a better mood.
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Thank you. Life just feels so good now that I have survived my depressive episode… such a change in mood poles that the difference is amazing and beautiful. Thank you for your comments. I appreciate them greatly.
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People sometimes ask me what is the cause of my mental illness. Have you discovered what causes your bipolar disorder?
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I think it is genetics as I have relatives on both sides of my family with mental illness. My aunt has Bipolar for sure… also I have PTSD from abuse when I was a child
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Thank you for sharing this with us. The pain doesn’t get easier, but you are a strong person for hanging in there.
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Thank you. Well I don’t have a choice as it is my life and actually things could always be worse. Plus, after I climb out of a depressive episode life feels so good and so much better. I appreciate life again. Unfortunately, I isolate so much when I am depressed unfortunately…. Thank you for your comments. I appreciate them greatly! Hugs!
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